Art of Wellness

Years ago, in the mountains of central China, a man carried his young son on his back to the hospital with him, teaching the boy everything he knew about healing. The boy watched his father with rapt attention, knowing that he, like seven generations of his family before him, would one day grow up to be a doctor. But the boy’s apprenticeship and training went far beyond the study of medicine. Every day, hours before sunrise, he rose to practice Qigong and martial arts. For in ancient Chinese philosophy it was held that “”Only one who is healthy and strong himself can heal. After years of training at his father’s side, the boy left his hometown for the city, where he attended a prestigious medical school and deepened his Qigong and Tai Chi practice with several masters of great renown. At the university, he met a girl who shared his passion for Traditional Chinese Medicine as well as Qigong and martial arts.

The girl’s father was a self-taught herbalist who doctored the family and the people of their town. When she was a child, he would take her with him into the forest or along the riverbank in search of the right plant, grass or root to cure a sick person’s ailment. This folk wisdom, spirit of service and concern for others inspired her to become a doctor and instilled in her a deep appreciation for the power of traditional medicine. The girl grew up during a time of political chaos in China, a turbulent period when the culture’s ancient wisdom and traditions were scorned. Despite this, her parents taught their daughter about traditional Chinese philosophy and culture and took her on secret pilgrimages to sacred Buddhist and Taoist temples and shrines. These ideas and values influenced her decision as an adult to study Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM).

Throughout their years of medical schooling, the pair found strength and calm in the midst of their rigorous studies by sparring and practicing martial arts together. Each won medals: he earned a gold medal, and she a silver in national martial arts competitions among students from Traditional Chinese Medical schools across China. When they completed their studies, both had obtained medical degrees not only in Traditional Chinese Medicine, but also received the same training that a Western doctor would obtain from an American medical school. After years of practicing medicine and teaching at prestigious university hospitals in China, the young man who had grown up watching his father heal patients moved to America with his wife and daughters, where for more than 10 years, they have shared their deep knowledge of acupuncture and Traditional Chinese Medicine.

Dr. Qineng Tan – LAc. Ph.D. OMD (China)


Dr. Tan comes from a long line of doctors of Traditional Chinese Medicine. An eighth-generation acupuncturist, Dr. Tan’s training started at age five, when he began studying martial arts and Qigong, practices that awaken one’s inner chi or subtle energy. Throughout the many thousand year history of Traditional Chinese Medicine, it has been believed that only a doctor with inner cultivation is truly able to heal patients. Dr. Tan’s rare background combines a mastery of China’s ancient healing and martial arts along with in-depth training in modern Western medicine. A gold medal winner in martial arts competitions among students from TCM schools across China, Dr. Tan is a Kung Fu master known for his compassionate care and exceptional skills.


Dr. Tan earned his medical degree at Chengdu University of Traditional Chinese Medicine, one of China’s top-ranked Chinese medical schools.
A commitment to offer the highest quality of care led Dr. Tan to also study Western medicine. He completed advanced training as an orthopedic surgeon at People’s Hospital of Sichuan Province. Dr. Tan worked as a full-time associate professor and senior orthopedic surgeon for 10 years at Chengdu University of Traditional Chinese Medicine, which is known for its pioneering work integrating Eastern and Western medicine, and as director and chief physician at a major orthopedic center in the city of Dachuan. His writings and academic papers were used as textbooks in Traditional Chinese Medical schools in China. Dr. Tan’s publications address Traditional Chinese Medicine for the treatment of various conditions, from pain management to neurological, internal, adrenal, and immunological disorders, cancer patient support, men and women’s health, anti-aging as well as wellbeing. During his more than 25 years of practice, Dr. Tan has trained hundreds of doctors of TCM. He is a member of the American Academy of Pain Management and a fellow of the American Society of Acupuncturists.


Dr. Tan was invited to the U.S. to teach and practice the philosophy of Traditional Chinese Medicine in 1996. He has been practicing as a licensed acupuncturist in Santa Monica, where he has enriched the lives of thousands of patients. Dr. Tan has a holistic approach to wellness and a unique ability to advise and treat patients, drawing upon the merits of both Eastern and Western medicine.


In ancient China, it was said only a doctor with the highest personal cultivation had the chi, or awakened subtle energy, to cure a patient. Dr. Cai felt there was merit to such ideas, and her medical training in Traditional Chinese Medicine included the study and mastery of the ancient Chinese martial arts, including Qigong. Dr. Cai believes deeply in preventative medicine and the importance of a healthy diet and lifestyle. One of Dr. Cai’s passions is her interest and study of women’s health issues and gynecology, the field of her post graduate training. From 1986 to 1997, Dr. Cai practiced and taught at Chengdu University’s TCM Hospital, a major teaching hospital specializing in integrating Eastern and Western medicine in China. Dr. Cai first worked there as a gynecologist and then as a senior and chief physician overseeing new residents. During a two-year period of specialty training, she had the opportunity to study and work with some of China’s foremost experts in Traditional Chinese Medicine. In 1997, Dr. Cai moved to Santa Monica where her strong medical background in China helps inform her acupuncture practice. Her knowledge of both Western medicine and Traditional Chinese Medicine gives her a unique ability to understand and educate her patients and help them to make informed medical decisions. This diverse expertise allows Dr. Cai to recommend, when necessary, a mixture of medical modalities, and allows her to advise whatever course of treatment is most beneficial for her patients.


Dr. Xiaomei Cai has more than 25 years medical experience of acupuncture and Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM). Dr. Cai has conducted extensive medical research and published numerous academic papers and books in the field of TCM. One of the herbal remedies that she researched with a former colleague is now a popular remedy used for treating uterine fibroid tumors in Chinese hospitals.
Dr. Cai is an active member of the Pacific Coast Fertility Society, the World Alternative Medicine Organization, and the American Society of Acupuncturists.


Dr. Cai has taught hundreds of medical students, interns, residents and physicians for their advanced training in TCM. She has lectured on acupuncture and Traditional Chinese Medicine at Chengdu University of TCM, as well as at various conferences, such as the Resolve Fertility Conference on Acupuncture and Chinese Medicine
She has extensive experience working in the fields of infertility, women’s health, immunologic, adrenal and endocrine disorders, cancer patient support, emotional disorders, children’s health, internal and skin conditions, and pain management, as well as general well-being.

Brugh Joy: Shadow,Ego,Self

This piece from W. Brugh Joy, M.D. was written towards the end of his life in the fall of 2009.

“Unconditioned/Unconditional Love Transcends the Self and gives the Self the cohesiveness of a Center of Being that is Supernally Conscious of the vast and unpartitioned Whole, the Eternal Forces or the Holyland…the archetypal fixed that are universal, unchanging, concentrated in potency, that can, from time to time transcend the material forces of form and function. Within this Center of Self lie two other centers of Awareness. Although neither the Ego nor the Shadow are the same as the Awareness of the Self…they are intricately and intimately related to the Self and under its unfurling dynamic in Temporality. The Ego and Shadow are specialized and limited aspects of the Self and function primarily to engage the Three Pillars of Temporality…Mystery of Change….Mystery of Differences….Mystery of Creative Adaptation and unfoldment.

The Shadow is the Self’s reservoir of Unconsciously expressed aspects of the Self that operate to maintain the overall balance and intention of the Self in specific relationship to the Ego…of which the surface sense of self, the ego, is only part of the Ego. There is nothing in the Ego or the Shadow that determines whether or not the balancing forces of the Self are activated. The Self is the source and the implementer of both Ego and Shadow interaction. The Shadow must not integrate Ego. The Ego must not integrate Shadow. It is the Self…when both timing of maturation of developmental dynamics and the supporting forces of the Self are in alignment that will activate the dissolution of both the Ego and the Shadow into a full reflection of Itself.

There is a problem when the Ego decides it is going to integrate the Shadow and vice versa. Too soon a conscious realization of the Self’s Shadow by the Ego or the Shadow’s conscious realization of the Self’s Ego would disrupt either secondary center and rupture the primary integrity of the Self in Time and Place… other words…in Temporality.

The Shadow fulfills the wholeness of the Self….is modulated by the Self and only becomes a conscious part of self when the Self begins the Wholeing or Holy task of uniting Shadow and Ego ….a Soul Mystery of uncertain outcome. When the personality or ego begins to take charge of dreams and possesses the dynamics ….a mishandling of the Holy Forces occurs. Really…the ego is the witness to the Self/Ego/Shadow development.

Remember….The Self, The Ego, and The Shadow don’t really exist per se but appear as epiphenomena issuing out of interacting forces. The interacting forces express uniquely depending upon what primary combination of interacting forces are present in any given individual in any given place, and in any given time.

Out of nothing all of this has come…..into nothing all of this will go…Don’t be too concerned about the aberration of Light.

To be re-emphasized….The Ego is not the source of the Shadow and the Shadow is not the source of Ego. The Shadow does not have to be made conscious to the Ego to effect its Holy Mission. The Ego does not have to be conscious to the Shadow to effect its Holy Mission. Both Ego and Shadow are completely under the egis of the Self. The Shadow modulates…the Ego orients. The unconscious forces that make up the Ego and the Shadow are Transpersonal and Holy. They must not be appropriated by either the Ego or the Shadow and certainly not by the ego….the surface awareness.

Shadow formation is never a conscious process nor does it need to be made conscious. It functions best unconsciously….just as the forces of the Ego operate best unconsciously. The Shadow can live through an individual, a family, a clan, a tribe, a community, a nation, and all of Humanity as a function of the intrinsic nature of Temporality/Manifestation/Time/Space. It is a part of Divinity’s (Self’s) Homeostasis or the Holy Love mystery of Balance. It is innate to the Wholeness or Holiness of Self.

The Shadow, as a natural aspect of homeostasis, operates (erupts) from time to time in the life of the conscious self Ego or larger and larger group awareness as a surprise/shocking action, illness, accident, slips of tongue, nightmare dreams, and self-sabotaging, and as Evil or the Dark face of Divinity when the surface awareness is biased to positivity.

The Shadow operates in the unexpected miraculous and inspired action, healing, inexplicable knowing to avoid a potential destructive moment, truth saying without karma in conversation, spontaneous healing, restorational dreams, self-acceptance and self love, and finally as Self Realization of the Beauty of God when the surface awareness (Conscious Ego) is biased to negativity.

The Ego is not the primary center of Awareness….the Self is.

The Shadow is not the primary center of awareness…the Self is.

The ego is the reflecting witness.

The unfoldment of a life is driven by the unconscious dynamics between Self…the Shadow…and the Ego. What the ego is aware of is mostly socialization attitudes, biases, preferences, and filtered perceptions.

The Self is the only responsible agent for the entire mystery of one’s life. Free will of the Shadow or of the Ego is an illusion generated out of a limited awareness. When witnessing the Divine Play of one’s Life…best not to appropriate any of what is seen, revealed, or experienced as personal.

The Self, The Ego, and The Shadow operate in time and out of time. The ego operates almost exclusively in time. The Ego is the chief organ of Temporal Awareness.

The Self….the Deepest Divine Mystery…may or may not elect to become conscious to the Ego.

Suggesting that C.G.Jung’s overarching view point ….that the great task of individual consciousness is to become more and more conscious…might not be, in any way the mandate to humanity. To the contrary….the great task of individual consciousness is to realize that the greatest mystery lies in darkness, the unconsciousness, and the mystery of manifestation and the impossibility of consciousness to encompass unconsciousness! The most astonishing, awesome, mind boggling, staggering, and incomprehensively complex manifestations took place without any secondary consciousness and certainly not by the consciousness presumed by humankind.

The most fundamental Realization is that consciousness or light is an aberrant and fundamentally temporary phenomenon of darkness to handle motion and change. Light and consciousness are both mostly interferences and most rarely a witness and handmaiden to the action of Self. Ego Consciousness is the carrier of the Soul’s incarnation into a specific time and a specific place. It is an interference of wholeness because it is differentiating and discerning. The Shadow is the Ego’s counterpart reflecting the Ego’s unconscious complements and vice versa. Gestation is the great principle of Darkness.”…W. Brugh Joy, M.D.